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I am a first-born female over age 60. I am middle class, and have a graduate degree in Business. I have over 28 continuous years in recovery from alcoholism. I have been in Borderline treatment for over 14 years. I still have not reached full-time Serenity, but I have continued to survive this disorder using distress tolerance skills, interpersonal effectiveness, mindfulness, and emotion regulation. These are the 4 components of the DBT Skills as devised by Dr. Marsha Linehan. Email me with any questions at amy@alawebpages.com. Many thanks and blessings for sharing my interest and broadening your awareness of this disorder.

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Thursday, July 16, 2009

Loss ! (a 4-letter word to a Borderline)


It's been a good couple of days. Just learning about my disorder of BPD, enjoying the summer, and trying to pick up the pieces from some fragmented situations going on right now in my life. A divorce, a separation, to relationship breakups of friends, the state of the Economy - why do these things impact me so? The deaths of Ed McMahon, Ferrah Fawcett, and icon Michael Jackson... gently rock my world, but doesn't rock me to sleep.

So many regrets - but I will not focus on them now. I will focus my attention on something else more pleasant.


OMG! I found out that my therapist is retiring in a year. I have been with her for over 5 years in Treatment (DBT), but not really aware of her commitment to my becoming whole until the last couple of weeks. So, with that acknowledgment, I guess that BPD has become a bit of a quest for me to enlighten lay people and professionals that it can no longer be ignored or avoided. It must be dealt with by everyone...because it is real. I am real. I have Borderline. Therefore, Borderline Personality Disorder is real. It is not going away.

Blogs help me understand me, and others to understand the workings of the blogger's mind.

Thought for the Day: I have tried for many years to love my Borderline mother. I am finding that forgiving her for having this disorder, and passing it on to me helps me to love her. I only realized this about 2 weeks ago. It's difficult. Life is difficult.

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