Baseline

Good afternoon! It has been a long time since I have been able to write in this blog. I have been involved in a very big project that has required many, many hours to get this thing planned, designed, delegated and executed. I am almost done...and can afford to sit back after 3 months of intense work.

I realize how glad I will be when I'm done with this, but yet at the same time...I wonder a bit how I will fill the time-slots that have been so tightly filled. I cannot project. My DBT skills say to stay in the moment. A 12-Step program will also give that same advice.

I have learned so much on the computer...processes, designing. I have also acquired a new computer in the interim....and am very grateful about that. Getting used to a new computer is something that can take weeks to integrate until you are up to speed. Also a new operating system. But I digress.

The thrust of this blog is to discuss progress in my Borderline disordered personality. Few things have thrown me onto the "track of that racing train"; I seem to be able to think things through - to not let my emotional mind win. Wise Mind is in the front seat. Emotional Mind was told to go to the back of the bus.

I feel a bit more mature. I do believe that I have been sitting at baseline for several months now. It is noticed by friends and family alike. Maybe I am just getting older. Maybe I am "mentalizing" more. (see the website for the definition of this). I know that I am taking every tip and trick I have heard and learned and applying it to improve the quality of my life. Things are better. Much better. And I am grateful. I have been blessed with many "spiritual rewards", and I like knowing that. Namaste.