About Me

My photo
Midwest, United States
I am a first-born female over age 60. I am middle class, and have a graduate degree in Business. I have over 28 continuous years in recovery from alcoholism. I have been in Borderline treatment for over 14 years. I still have not reached full-time Serenity, but I have continued to survive this disorder using distress tolerance skills, interpersonal effectiveness, mindfulness, and emotion regulation. These are the 4 components of the DBT Skills as devised by Dr. Marsha Linehan. Email me with any questions at amy@alawebpages.com. Many thanks and blessings for sharing my interest and broadening your awareness of this disorder.

featured on Blog Flux

Blog Directory by Blog Flux

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Borderline Awakening to March


Good evening. Life has been kinda messy these last few months. Life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you handle it. True! I take responsibility for my actions. I am starting with a new therapist. One retired, one went to a different job. Twice in 7 months. This is not easy for me. And, I am trying to get my health insurance change-over straightened out. Many, many hoops I've jumped thru. 'Way too many people not do their job as promised. I am holding on, however. I still meditate. I create art. I help people when I can, without co-dependent motives. I guess I'm doing ok. But what about my Borderline mother? She's aging, and not outgrown it and never sought treatment or therapy. She continues with her theatrics. I am so done with this. Adult children of alcoholics remain loyal to people, long after it is even deserved by them. 


I listen to and stick with the winners. I try to not let my self-esteem suffer at the dysfunctional "others". I am a good person. I chose to get well. I will not let the sick ones pull me down with them. I will keep working the Skills of Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. I will try to be fulfilled and happy. I will keep working on my unknown purpose in this life. I am giving it all my best shot.

I look to the promise of Spring-time coming. I continue to amaze myself at my resiliency.

No comments:

Post a Comment