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I am a first-born female over age 60. I am middle class, and have a graduate degree in Business. I have over 28 continuous years in recovery from alcoholism. I have been in Borderline treatment for over 14 years. I still have not reached full-time Serenity, but I have continued to survive this disorder using distress tolerance skills, interpersonal effectiveness, mindfulness, and emotion regulation. These are the 4 components of the DBT Skills as devised by Dr. Marsha Linehan. Email me with any questions at amy@alawebpages.com. Many thanks and blessings for sharing my interest and broadening your awareness of this disorder.

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Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Fall of the House of Usher

It is the time of falling leaves.  I hate Fall.  Usually.  But Fall means new birth and growth in the Spring (if we survive the holidays).


I have a stepson who is hell-bent on killing himself with drugs and alcohol.  I have a mother with dementia who is railing at me and anyone else who'll listen to her railing about me.       Al-Anon is telling me to sever ties with my family.  I am Power of Attorney and manage the family fortune through a financial powerhouse.


I am struggling.  I have made a weak attempt at suicide yesterday.  I didn't care if I died or not.  I hate this Borderline.  I hate what it does to your Soul.  Right now I have a God-less Soul.

There is no joy in Life.  This has got to end.  I must find a way.  No hope.
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