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I am a first-born female over age 60. I am middle class, and have a graduate degree in Business. I have over 28 continuous years in recovery from alcoholism. I have been in Borderline treatment for over 14 years. I still have not reached full-time Serenity, but I have continued to survive this disorder using distress tolerance skills, interpersonal effectiveness, mindfulness, and emotion regulation. These are the 4 components of the DBT Skills as devised by Dr. Marsha Linehan. Email me with any questions at amy@alawebpages.com. Many thanks and blessings for sharing my interest and broadening your awareness of this disorder.

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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Meaningfulness


Good Day. I trip through this day looking for the not-so-obvious meaning that lurks somewhere in my life. Meaning for my existence here on Earth. My disorder has created a lot of choas and havoc over the years, and I feel that does not lend itself to much credibility. I do have a lot of experience in making a mess of my life (and others'), but I have come through it too. I have made amends to many other people for the destructive path I have walked and dragged them with me during various segments of the journey.


I have to live with my Self-doubt, and Forgive myself. I have to continually choose to not beat up on myself for the pain that I have created in people's lives whom I have touched. I just stay in the Moment, and be Mindful of each minute of positive instances that I experience. It is so much easier to blog about this, than to practice it.


I have to try new and uncomfortable activities each day, if I am to continue to grow -- both, spiritually and emotionally. I guess this might be a good thing for all people to try. I HAVE to do it because my old ways do not work, and have never worked well for me. So, I push myself to get out of my daily rut. And you certainly can have one by my age. Try something new today. Good luck !

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