Good Morning. It is a beautiful Fall day. Cool mornings. 80 degree afternoons. I am using the DBT skills sometimes. I just can't re-direct the impulses. I can't do it. It is emotionally, mentally impossible. I have tried every skill. I just cannot SOMETIMES calm myself. I have lived with an unbearable family situation. I have been called "nut" and sworn to by a daughter-in-law of my significant other. I did not deserve it, nor did any of my actions call for it. My significant other is "making" me put up with it. I have no self-esteem. I am beat down. I struggle for daily existence without cutting myself. There is no peace. I want to run away. I have a mental illness. That is professionally certified by the United States government. I do not have anything to offer that is real uplifting today. It is what it is. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. Signing off.
About Me
- The Journey of a Recovering Borderline
- Midwest, United States
- I am a first-born female over age 60. I am middle class, and have a graduate degree in Business. I have over 28 continuous years in recovery from alcoholism. I have been in Borderline treatment for over 14 years. I still have not reached full-time Serenity, but I have continued to survive this disorder using distress tolerance skills, interpersonal effectiveness, mindfulness, and emotion regulation. These are the 4 components of the DBT Skills as devised by Dr. Marsha Linehan. Email me with any questions at amy@alawebpages.com. Many thanks and blessings for sharing my interest and broadening your awareness of this disorder.
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